Have you ever wondered…

If someone, with nothing better to do, were to make a record of every thought that muscled across your inner landscape in a 24 hour period… to sort out and form categories, and squeeze into graphs and venn diagrams, …and another day, and another….collecting and collating all the data, deducing results, compiling statistics…and then, come running at you, crunching across the gravel, waving a piece of paper, saying “Humanoid, yes definitely humanoid! All pretty much the same shit, again and again. Only difference I see is that some of us question and some of us don’t!”…

At the point when the piece of paper enters the stage, i went off on a massive visual side track. The person wielding the evidence happened to be an elderly suit-clad gentleman, rather earnest and unwelcome, intruding into my space with a big, exaggerated, shouting mouth that grew to fill my visual field.  My side track zoomed in horribly to give each word the power to engulf me, and yet somehow even then, i reserved the capacity to be unconvinced. The paper too had an alarming, close-up quality, like the harsh white wings of a wildly flapping bird, beating in my face, clamouring for my attention. “Look, look, LOOK!” slapped the wings, “can’t you SEE???”

Don’t expect my blogs to make any sense.

Just the ramblings of one of the questioners…

It’s the Question that helps me pause. The benefit is in the Why? Again and again, throughout each day, the “Why?” helps me unhook. It’s not the average kind of “why” because it doesn’t ask for an answer. It just catapults me beyond the quagmire.

Again and again, the little pause, the “ahh yes!”, “oh, this again!”, ” ah, i forgot again, silly me!”…round and round in the same old shit, the fabulous, extra ordinary ordinariness of Humanoid pre occupations….with little moments, little gasps of breath,

i unhook.